this stick is dead - fetch the dead stick

please get my dead stick and throw it ashore

right what ever life sucks and then some

where dieing is the wrong color and sleeping the only thing left to do

there is only so much suspended animation and can occur at the same time

vast voids of nothing still infect and contaminate my being

inside me there is less then nothing and still nothing remains real again.  

why do I press the enter button twice am I or is I counting the everything that is out of time indecent ocd...

by now there isn't any form of success I do not know... there by I have failed again successfully

losing the game means I win there by I have lost the game and lost it; being a lose lose lose situations in lifelessness

find my willingness at odds with my billing the person who is effect here by...

into the ever more;,, never again, but not even thoughts, make them different then from our milling over the box of lifeless meat pies that float along the river next to the stick I am ...

sideways pathwise and influenced by meaningless dharma plots (of land) so pointless to come ashore;,, in the night of nights in the light of the lost causes that retain their beingness into their minds sideways pathwise.